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8 months ago my father tragically died from cancer i was devastated my two friend in college tried to contact me for like two weeks after the death but i was not able to see or deal with anyone so i replied to them that when i am in a good state and capable of going out i will contact them immediately and i thought they will understand this , in this period i went to a psychiatrist because tranquilizers were not enogh for me and i needed anti depressants , he harassed me , so i was even more broken , i was fragile and vulnerable and sad , some how i managed to come out of this state on my own. During this period there was a guy i met online who helped me with some medications we only talked a few times , my friends knew him , he seemed nice but he was an astheist , after i returned back to normal condition and started going to college and getting my life back , i found out that those friends excluded me from their lives ans i was very alone at college and i had family problems also after that cause i was living with my father alone and now he is dead , that guy from the internet tried to contact me but i didn't answer cause i thought he was weird and creepy somehow and my life is already a mess , one day at college he came to me out of no where and talked to me and my friends or so called friends saw him , since that they keep mentioning him with joking in every time they see me and they bully because they know that no one knows that i talked to this guy and the fact the he is astheist that fact if any body knew i would be in serious problem , people will hate me for it , yes they are judgmental and racist here , so now they know and they keep bullying me and making me wish i were dead every day and i can't take it anymore.