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When I met him, i was really immature. We broke up, i grew up a little and realized how i felt. I looked for him and we got back together. I later found out he was with someone. It broke me, i told the other person and tried to move on. But i couldn't, i got back in touch and we tried to be friends but it became more again. He then tried to end it because we both felt guilty and awful. I keep trying to find meaning and figure out why we did these things. I want him in my life, even if he is with someone else. The thing holding me back is that we always fall back in love. We always get back to a point were we are in a relationship. Neither of us have moved on even though so much time has passed. Even when we stopped talking for months. One of us would give up and message the other. I know I've done something wrong, is there any advice for me? I love this person dearly, but am now at a loss of what to do.

I am 26, Aquarius, graphic designer, Filipino/German.
Been in 1st relationship from 15-20 years & 2nd from 20-25.
After breakup I signed up on tinder cuz I am a sexual person.
Met a guy there. He’s 21, Capricorn, Business Student, French/German.
He loves football, guitar, chess and karate.

Had first date at his place for three days by the end of April 2019.
We smoked & had such a great chemistry so we had Sex the first night. He was amazed by the Intensity. Probably because I am more experienced than him, what made it even more enjoyable for me.

The day after, we had casual conversations and he mentioned his “Belgian Girl” he fell in love with. & showed me his ex girlfriends on insta (Was that a strategy?) >stroked my ego and made me fall for him!

Haven’t chatted for a week after our date, then I initiated contact & since then we chat or have phone calls regularly.

He works with his boss on their startup in Africa until January 2020. Because I’m a Graphic Designer I started working for them what actually made up 90% of the contact and conversations.
He also offered me to rent his apartment while he isn’t here. So I moved in July 2019.
He visited me here for a week, because he had to repeat an exam. (I wasn’t the reason for his visit)
He brought me a souvenir bracelet (does it have a meaning?)

Got to know his roommate & she said he was “looking for a relationship but is a player and into taken girls.” His friends like me by the way.
When he and I chat, we never talk about sex. We actually became good friends and he trusts me (after this short time?)
He invited me to join him & his best friend to Africa in January (wouldn’t do that if he’s just into sex?)

Temporarily he’s in Hamburg (550 km away from my location) for three months before he goes back to Africa. He updated his Tinder profile. (Because I’m too far & he‘s too lazy?)
He has to pass by for three days by the end of December 2019, in order to repeat another exam.
He’ll move to France by June 2020 for 2 years.