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My current girlfriend is an ex from a yr ago. She's 5'1, brunette and super cute face! When we first met, I'd never been slapped by a girl. I'd blocked 2. I was really cocky too, ugh. Well, sorta halfway playing around, she got me twice back then, and it came up. She asked me. I told her the second smack REALLY frustrated me, cuz I swore it wouldn't happen again after the first one. Both were right hand smacks. The second one, I was being sarcastic, and she goes "uhh?" And whoop!-out hung her right hand slap to the side. I told her this exactly. I saw her hand-but it was FAST!-So I went😮😮😮! And I saw her hang it out, but far out, and I don't know a single karate move, and all I thought about was HOW FAST her hand flipped out! My mouth fell😮😮! So I looked at her face and saw instantly how unreal cute her face is and I instantly went😲😲😲😲😲and was frozen, unable to move! I admitted this is why I didn't look right in her face a lot, because I knew that. All I could do was shut my eyes and when her right hand smack began turning my face I was MAD AS HELL because I didn't know any karate!😤😤😤😤😤I asked her if any guy had ever blocked it, and she said nope... she even slapped a football player😒damnit. Should I have admitted that to her?

Valentine's day is coming up, and I know I'm going to be alone, just as I've been every single year. I haven't ever been on a date, I've tried lately, but only to get stood up 4, yes, FOUR times in the past month, twice in one night. The fact that they didn't come made me angry with them for being selfish, and frustrated me because I imagined it going well. I still had fun alone, which is what mattered most to me. What's hurt me the most on Valentine's day is how much it puts me down to see everyone in love, and nobody wants me on a romantic level. So, it's been tempting for me to hire an escort. I fully acknowledge that what they'd be giving me isn't real love, but it could be the most powerful suppressor to all the pain I feel on Valentine's day to be with someone and do romantic things with them as well. It's also appealing for me to know that they aren't going to reject me, and they likely won't just kick me out if I say one awkward thing while I'm with them. How do I resist temptation?