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I had this huge crush on this girl for like 3 years now. We were in the same coaching and the day I saw her , I fell for her. I was always afraid to talk to her (only afraid of her ). Last year my female bestie texted her in which she told my crush how I felt for her and how crazy I was for her. To my surpise my crush was really happy and the next thing I knew was that she texted me for the first time and since then we talked for like a whole year. She used to look into my eyes and used to feel a connection with her spiritually.5 days ago , I confessed my feelings to her on insta I told her everything (even that I am seeing her in my dreams) I thought she would either say a yes or no, but she just left me on read. After 10 mins of her keeping me on read she deactivated her account. 3 days ago she came back. She still hasn't replied to my confession. She is one of those girls who would straight away reject a guy if she isn't interested. I don't know why she is acting like this. I waited a whole year to propose to her because both of us were having our medical exams ( which both of us didn't to quite well) . Is this because her exam didn't go that well or is there something else? Please help me people
P. s - She and I have such deep pure eye contacts (you know where you feel connected from inside)