Polls: Relationships

There's a girl in my college i found attractive i like her and after talking for 3 months and becoming good friends i confessed to her but she denied saying she just wanted us to be friend after that i tried to cut off my contact but she didn't stopped calling or texting and insisted to be friends so i stayed her friend as she didn't had any other friend i stayed her friend and after some time she got into a relationship with a quiet guy in our class and earlier after my rejection i asked her is it because she have crush on some other guy but she denied but after getting into relationship with him she told me that she had crush on him even before we become friend and now i feel so bad as she made a new female friend too who support her and her new boyfriend. i feel like i am of no use of her now. now she's not being so friendly like she used to be earlier and when i ask her if she wants to end our friendship she don't let me end things and blamed i always fight with her and play the victim card. we had a fight few days ago so the next day I ignored her whole day but after class when i was going back with her she started to cry and run away i tried to calm her but she said she didn't want to talk and her boyfriend calmed her and later when i called her to check on her she said so many rude things to me i felt bad. and told me she felt bad cuz i said i feel like she was ignoring me and not replying to my texts. so we are in fight and not talking so for last few days she been calling me daily but i am not picking her calls and not replying to her texts. Should I end things with her? or Stay her friend? I still have feelings for her.

Like if you have something you really need to say or you want them to address. are you good at talking about it? or do you get shy or nervous about it and don't say anything?

Like, getting married

My grandmlther took a vow..."til death do we part." So she murdered my grandfather. And got away with it.

she was having an affair with her doctor.

Ahe admitted to all this before she died.

Id rather have a female who cheats.

I don't know if I can take anymore. I cook; I clean; I work cybersecurity; I bodybuild; and the worst part of it all has been her. But. The best part of it all has also been her.

I am angry. She consistently says she'll help me out around the house, but words are just words, and she rarely if ever follows through.

Her gifts to me are only things she wants. She got me steak knives for my birthday, because she wanted new steak knives. She mocked me feeling sad over the death of my mother, 7 months into the relationship. Fought with me at my graduation. Every important moment of my life has been sundered by her.

Even her sister has warned me that she just gaslights constantly.

But, I get angry at her, too, insult her, mock her, raise my voice when we fight. And that's relationships, right? I have many faults, too, so is it fair of me to judge hers and say I can't bear them?

She also taught me so many things and we've shared so many wonderful moments together.

I have a great career, great body, and I'm working harder and harder on myself to become a better version of me, spiritually, mentally, physically. Everything. But she uses that against me and exploits my willingness to olive branch. She exploits my willingness to sit down and talk about what I'm doing wrong, never admitting to anything, and making the whole relationship a defect in me that I must always make up for but never can fully. My faults are mine, and also her faults are also mine. It's such a heavy burden.

But. I'm looking at these pictures and videos of our happy moments. And I can't help but think that I am thinking about throwing away 3 years of blood sweat and tears. Not to mention I'm 1,100 miles from my home now, with no friends here, and only her, so I'm utterly alone aside from the fact that we still live together.

Thankfully I make enough money now to pay double rent for a couple months if I decide to break the lease.

Anyway. Is there ever hope with a covert narcissist?