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I've been in only one relationship before... And it ended pretty horribly so I must not know how to be a proper girlfriend yet. But anyways, this is my story so far.

Me and this guy got together on discord after meeting each other for a few days... I don't know why but I guess we really hit it off. He was the one to be shy whenever we met and friended each other. He came to the group chat I was on because he liked another girl which is my online bestfriend. I ain't going to say names because I don't know who's reading this...

So, anyways. Me and my friend did a reverse tug of war around him because we both cared so much about each other and how the other was feeling. And everytime I texted him... I just felt guilty until something happened. He thought my friend was married, so he asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. I responded with a yes...

The thing was that I couldn't manage to text him... Being way too shy. That's just how I am in a relationship for the first part. And he told me he was upset one time... But it was pretty vague so I had to keep trying to pick up on what he'd said.

That was until soon I told my other online friend who'm I trusted his word ever since the first time, he was gay. And I know people of all sexualities so I ain't meaning anything against it! Many gay people that I know are always so happy and fun to be around. So I didn't feel guilty going to him because I knew that he only cared about me as a friend.

And that's where I got my confidence to speak to my partner about all of this and apologize... And I do apologize a lot. Especially online because the first time you meet me is actually how I really am. I'm way too submissive and happy and... Caring also clingy. But it doesn't seem like he's going to open up... I've searched up so many things on how to help my boyfriend feel happy and all the stuff I could think about for dating. He seems to still like my Bestfriend which I still ship. What did I do wrong? Please tell me...

So this guy and I matched on tinder about 2 years back. Initially we used to text each other for hours before meeting. And he made it seem like he liked me although none of us actually confessed, and at that time i had just gotten out of a relationship so I liked talking to him and found him quiet cool and developed a crush on him. Then once he told me he doesn't wanna hurt me. So I was wondering why he said that. Then I saw that he's talking to another girl (who he later told me was his high school bff). I stalked her and didn't find her that attractive so i thought she's probably just a friend. Then the next year we weren't in touch for a very long time and I got over him because another guy came into my life. I made a fake id to stalk him on insta and saw that he's made a birthday post with a cute caption with that other girl. I wasn't jealous because I already had someone then. A few months later he texted me and wanted to finally meet me, so we met and drank at a bar and he wanted to hook up with me but i ignored his advances cause i was kind of seeing someone already. Then we met again and went for a movie and i just kept talking about this other guy who I like and asked him if he likes anyone and he said "i'm on a break with a girl" and he probably didn't like that I kept mentioning that other guy. Anyway after that day we never even spoke once and I saw that he posted another birthday post with that girl on her birthday. I honestly don't care now at all but I have a strong feeling that they were dating when we started talking, and he was probably trying to double date me with her.