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So you really like someone but avoid them or keep your feelings carefully hid. You do this not bc you are worried they will reject you but bc you do not like admitting you have tender feelings / or sexual or both or whatever it is. So even if they tell you they like you , you may not be willing to respond honestly bc it is so humiliating for you to lower yourself to weakness— especially in the case of you are in love?

( I’m not sayjng love is weal, just that it might feel that way when in it)

I've never worried much about rejection, but I have this horrible habit of fighting what feelings I do have until they are unrecognizable to me... as alone if proof to myself I’m strong enough to not be drawn in. I do not hear a lot of people talk this at but I can’t imagine I’m the only one. I do hear people say they just don’t care as appear to not wanting to, BUT that’s how I talk on the outside so I wonder if any of those people who don’t care secretly do but don’t want to admit it bc it feels stronger to deny it?

Since no one knows anyone on here I thought maybe I’d get real answers in case anyone is like me.

its also starting to bother me. It never did before or I didn’t know it did. I used to be proud to shut my feelings down but now I’m learning I don’t have such control over it and isl how to just be real even if I want to. It just feels like I’m doing something really pathetic just to be Henest. Makes things very confusing when I genuinely like someone. I’ve been trying for years to come clean to the same Person and I just can’t imagine doing it without despising myself. I spent so many years being “strong” just to give in...

im primarily talking about Emotional attachment not sex. I don’t feel any embarrassment over sexual attraction , though I’ve never had sex it’s not bc I’m ashamed.