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I am turning 28 in a few months, of course nearing my 30s, and I never had a real girlfriend before. I had some online things, but they all rejected me upon meeting in person for the first time. Meanwhile, I have watched all my former friends form serious relationships, get married, and most of them have kids now.

I am not the most attractive guy physically. I am short and overweight I admit. I am also "weird" to a lot of people. I am on the Autistic Spectrum and have mental health issues too.

I haven't touched a girl since I was 20 (back in June 2015). I lost my virginity then to a 16 year old girl who was supposedly a virgin too at the time. I have only had sex exactly once in my lifetime. I have never actually "made love".

It saddens me because all my life I always wanted to have a girlfriend, wife, and kids of my own.

Really, I am seeking a decently attractive woman without a romantic past, but my days are numbered finding that I feel. That is a deal breaker to me. I feel I would be lucky to even find a good woman who has never been married at this point

I met her on a coding forum in June 2020. I can remember our first conversation.

I remember her telling me she never had a first love or any romantic bond with a guy before. At the time, she was 17 about to turn 18. I never expected to come across her, especially because I wasn't particularly seeking a woman at the time. She was perfect, and we really hit it off. I was specifically wanting a woman without a romantic past.

Anyways, we continued to talk more and more and we eventually formed an online relationship.

After several months had passed, I remember us talking about getting married and where we would go on our honeymoon and what we would name our kids. I was truly excited.

Sadly, when I met her for the first time in person a week after her 18th birthday, she rejected me. She found I wasn't her type.

Fast forwarding, she just recently married a guy a few weeks ago who got to be her first everything. I am still devastated. I had to tell her mom not long ago to cease sending me emails. I was hurting too much, so badly I had to be hospitalized. I am still recovering from the trauma of it.