I remember her telling me she never had a first love or any romantic bond with a guy before. At the time, she was 17 about to turn 18. I never expected to come across her, especially because I wasn't particularly seeking a woman at the time. She was perfect, and we really hit it off. I was specifically wanting a woman without a romantic past.
Anyways, we continued to talk more and more and we eventually formed an online relationship.
After several months had passed, I remember us talking about getting married and where we would go on our honeymoon and what we would name our kids. I was truly excited.
Sadly, when I met her for the first time in person a week after her 18th birthday, she rejected me. She found I wasn't her type.
Fast forwarding, she just recently married a guy a few weeks ago who got to be her first everything. I am still devastated. I had to tell her mom not long ago to cease sending me emails. I was hurting too much, so badly I had to be hospitalized. I am still recovering from the trauma of it.