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I've been crazy obsessed with this guy since I was about 8yrs old and it was really bad since I hit my teens. Starring at him constantly and barely able to talk most of the time. He was always good to me. When we were young he always did sweet things, example like draw me pictures and tried to teach me to snowboard every winter until he moved out. Threatened my boyfriends that I honestly had just because my best friend told me to (they didn't last long). I figured it's because he's known me for so long and felt like my big brother or something. =( He always knew I liked him. I think he liked how infatuated I was with him. He'd always sit next to me and try to talk to me or start conversation and smile his perfect gorgeous smile when he saw how nervous I was. He's 4 years older. I'm finally an adult and he broke it off with this girl he's been seeing for 3months about 2 weeks ago. He's been spending more time at his mom's house and I'm always over there. He seems to flirt more now. Like he hugs me tighter lately, telling me I look good, and inviting his sister and I to his place. He's having a small party. Do you think he might be into me now? I don't know how to find out. I've always wanted him and haven't dated. I have no experience with guys. Well I've been kissed when I was 16 once but that wasn't my choice. I didn't expect it.
I feel a little more comfortable around him that I think I could act relatively normal. Lol if he does like me I can't screw it up. My feelings are never going to go away for this guy. I've hated my feelings at times because they're too much. I've imagined it for so long that if I ever got to kiss him I'd probably pass out. Jk (I think) I just don't see anyone else he's the only guys I've ever wanted. God it's probably unhealthy. Smh
My life doesn't revolve around him or anything I'm going to go to college next year so it's not ruining my life or anything. But not being able to move on is very sad.