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After a long 5 years of constantly breaking up and reconciliation with a woman I love so much, we went our separate ways for good last year. Because of a religious difference
We've had a few moments where we both have said things are done, only for one of us reaching out and getting us back in contact.
Since then, I've made new social media accounts because I got hacked. I've noticed she will come up on search results on some days and some she won't.
My friends believe she is checking in on me, an I'd agree, because she's done this a lot in the past. My buddy also says it's because I left things alone this time.
Is she checking on me? Is there something I can do?
I can't reach out because I was the last one ad because of the situation, the ball is 100% in her court.

Individual hasn't returned keys/stuff when the dumpee has already. (dumpee does not watch anything/has removed that individual on social media)

After our first break up she got back with a former boyfriend (casual according to her and friends) a month or so after we broke up. She during the breakup she said she wasn’t sure if she was in love with me and didn’t see me in her life a year from then (also mentioned the quarter life crisis stuff). Months later she texts me that she couldn’t get over me and We had a long talk on what happened the first time (communication and what not). I left it up to her to start new and she broke it off with that guy. It went great the second time just like the first. Exercising together. Weekend trips often. Was asked on her family vacation. After that she talks about bringing stuff over to my place and then two days later there are doubts again about her future. She likes what we have but was trying to figure herself out. Weeks later after doing some things together she says she doesn’t know if she is settling or not. This time she said she loved me which made breaking up hard.
She didn’t think you should work at love and didn’t see us being the best for forever. We didn’t mesh all the time (I don’t think we meshed all the time because she didn’t seem to want to fully commit and it always made me a little apprehensive.). I would do anything for her and us. Her family really liked me ( her niece said to me on vaca that she wish I could stay in the family forever, which crushes me every day...). It sucks... and now she just won’t finish it by giving my stuff back. Why say I love you this beak up When the first time we broke up she was very okay with telling me she didn’t think she loved me anymore? This someone didn't get added...