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Usually I get sad when seeing an innocent toddler or child killed in movies or real life. There is an exception to the rule when I really want that child dead.

For instance the one in The Good Son that killed his baby brother 2 years prior (making him 10 years old), killed a dog, laughed when causing a pile-up traffic, tried to kill his sister, wanted to strangle his cousin and worst of all tried killing his own mother... yes that one deserved death.

Or the real life Doncaster case where two brothers (ages 12 and 10) tortured and sexually assaulted two kids; nearly killing an 11 year-old... if someone would've shot those little psychos to death, I wouldn't feel pity for them. Evil souls. Personally if they're murderous psychos that young, they're better off dead. I wish death on those little bastards.

I always felt uncomfortable dating guys that look better than me because he had more options to meet someone prettier and the fact that people would say he deserved someone skinner, prettier, or lighter skinned. I also felt guilty for dating guys who had more money than me because I was getting "better than I deserved" since I'm too ugly, nappy headed and poor according to some dudes and sadly a lot of females. So, women do you ever feel like your too ugly for a dude or that he's someone out of your league?
It's kinda gotten to the point where I have great friends but the guys I go after are terrible people.

So, I applied for a sign spinning job and got Hired the next day. So, I go for training and then after training the boss tells me they're firing me because they found better sign spinners. So, then I have to go home and tell my family that they just fired me. After that, I applied to work for a restraunt and once again I got a email saying they rejected me because they found someone with more experience. My mom was having a obvious affair at the time and things were really bad at home. I was thinking of making money in horrible ways like panhandling or escorting. Now it's at the point where I'm starting not to care what people think or even morals anymore.

If I ask for help I'm shamed for being a burden, if I don't have a job I'm considered a wrothless leech, if I escort then I'm a gold digging black whore who deserves to be killed. I can never win.