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So i met him on a cruise and we hit it off really well. He is the first boy that i have ever felt like this for and he is always on my mind. We would talk for hours until 2-3 in the am and hang out, look at the stars, cuddle, and just smile while staring at eachother. I think he is perfect and he compliments me all the time. He tells me that he cares a lot for me and wants to see me again and we were talking about dating and getting to know eachother better so that we could be a strong couple. He was super polite and very protective over me. If another boy talked to me and tried to flirt he would get super protective and kiss me in front of them. Just being close to him my heart was going crazy and i became really attached to him. He would wake me up in the morning and we would spend the whole day together. We sat in my room for hours just saying everything that we liked about eachother. He said that he had feelings for me that he couldnt explain and couldnt bear to see me cry. As soon as the cruise was over everything changed. Within 2 days of us keeping in touch he told me that "logic hit him" and that we couldnt keep a relationship because he didn't know if he could get time off to come see me because i live 5 hours away and he is starting college soon on top of the job that he has. He doesn't have a lot of money and he thinks that it won't work out. He told me that he didn't want to loose me in any way shape or form out of his life but he tells me he wants to be friends. He asked me what i thought and i told him that i was hurting and that i with in his eyes that i was worth the effort to at least try and make it work instead of giving up so fast but in return he told me, that he doesn't think im not worth it because im worth so so so much and it is just can't happen with what is comming up in our lives. Our families plan to meet up soon and im kind of scared to see him because i dont know what to say or how to act because i know my feelings for him are not normal.

There is this guy i kinda cheated on him with his best friend by kissing him and giving him a hand-job. i don't know y i did it i felt really terrible about it. He found out so things ended, he gave me hateful eyes at school and he started fooling around another girl. So recently i went on a trip with my club which he was in. he brought the girl on the trip... surprisingly he waved to me on the trip and asked me if i had anything to eat and i gave him a snack, when we reached the beach he started hugging me and told me he loved me repeatedly in front her. he went into the water with her for a long while and then came to me and told me he loves me again.. should i believe him?