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My parents gave me a life that's been a disaster... Ever since I can remember, we have financial problems and they simply can not give their two children the life every child deserves. My brother does not complain because he's been raised differently than me, but I have a very specific way of thinking, and I sought to understand everything since I know of myself. And over the years I understood that my parents simply couldn't afford to have children... Now what is my problem you may ask. I'm a kid raised with very little. As a kid my friends would show off who had the best toy and I always had the same old toys. Now you might think, this isn't a big deal, but the problem goes even deeper. I started going to school, and the public school I went to was completely free, which meant that food was not paid, books were not paid, transport not paid... Very often my parents wouldn't have any money to spare for me to eat at school... When all my friends would go to the stores to buy something I'd stay somewhere where I wouldn't attract attention because it once happened a friend to buy food from me, and it simply destroyed me. Now, I was an excelent student. Every single grade was A. And then High-School came. I realized that grades are nothing and I let down the school a bit and focused on socialization rather than studying... I was a student with mixed grades now. And I graduated this year, and guess what? My parents can't afford to send me to college or university. My country does not give out scholarships that easily, and even those who receive it, do not get much. And with that, my fate is sealed, basically. My career options are limited to jobs that do not pay a lot.
I should mention, I love kids. They make me calm. And when I see a kid going through the same I am going through, It makes me think. And I've come to a conclusion, basically. People shouldn't have children, if they can't afford to give them a happy life...
I'd aprecciate your opinions on this...