This Take is my first one and a part of my life that I don't often talk about. Thanks for reading in advance and I won't be enabling anonymous for that reason.
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The word "hishow" in Somali is a command to be shameful. It was exclusively used on my sisters and I when it came to our bodies and hair ever since we were young. Your hair is peeking a little out of your hijab? Hishow. Your breasts are a little too shapely under your shirt? Hishow. You have the audacity to hold hands with a guy? Hishow.
I'd say that this affected me the most out of all my siblings. I've always been easily influenced emotionally. I insist my parents are saints and they are but MAN, have they affected my attitude about attention more than they ever thought they could.
Since I was being stifled by what my parents' idea of appropriateness was. I sought attention in unhealthy and healthy ways alike. And of course, never within the sight of my parents.
I love being center-stage. I realized that was a thing about my personality when I constantly raised my hand to play main characters for English class plays. My craving manifested dangerously when I sought validation from strange men on the internet.
I wished every night I could act and look the way I liked without my mother scolding me (tight in her definition is nowhere near yours, I assure you).
I spent long years unaware of what I was doing and how this was only getting worse with time.
The day I had a wake-up call was long overdue.
My brother told me that I act tough at home but my real personality was the one I showed to other people. He used a couple choice words that stuck in my mind, the words he used on me stung.
"You scuttle in the hallways like a meek little mouse."
"Meek." I was shocked and taken aback that such a lowly description with a word associated with soft, humbled saints who endure suffering in silence.
This was the *exact opposite* of what I wanted to be.
That's the thing with Conservative cultures. I've noticed a similar thing from Asia to Africa. They stifle girls and teach them the default is to be shameful when having a BODY shouldn't be something to be ashamed about. Getting *attention* isn't something to be avoiding, you should just exist without worrying about *other* people's reactions to you. You should be carefree and wear what you like.
IN CONCLUSION:
Don't teach your daughters that they should be ashamed of their bodies, teach them to own them proudly.
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Thank you for reading.
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