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I always feel like I am not part of the family, they think I did not do anything right. There was a time when I went out from my family for 2 year in college due to sickness from long travel and lack of sleep, indeed it improved my grade from 82% to 97%. Until I graduated honor in college and they don’t care nor appreciate it.

But however, they love calling out all my mistakes. When I get a job, they sound belittling my job calling it not good enough. I cook something they never appreciate it instead they yelled at me saying wtf? Are you doing in the kitchen, you cook bad! They don’t even care to teach me driving me even if we have many cars. I always take commute while they use all my siblings. My parents are always trying to control me not to go with my friends when I went out with them to chill or to go traveling. And, when I had a boyfriend who is really broke but I care a lot for him so I help him on his finances but when my family knew about it they judged me a lot going to the point of ending my job, my friends and even my boyfriend that’s why we broke up.

So now I lost all my friends and boyfriend. I settle with my family who keeps pointing out my mistakes all over again. I’m so tired.
I am afraid to be like them not progressing in life, always sleeping, eating, no job and making my 3 years old kid as an entertainment. And, me I don’t have a life.

Should I go out to our house and start living my own life without control and putting self esteem down? Need your advise thanks!

There's no such thing as being selfless. You can only act in your own self interest. Every sentient being acts either to improve it's own happiness or to lessen it's suffering. If you help out someone, you do so because it makes you feel better, if it made you feel worse, then you wouldn't help people, even if it was beneficial to them. If you sacrifice yourself for the sake of your loved ones, you do so to avoid the pain you would feel if they suffered.