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I've been struggling with the break up. I feel as if I'm over her and our relationship. But not over how she abused how much I cared and how she tried to manipulate me.
Like, she knew I still had a thing for her after we separated, and once she couldn't find someone a part of her religion that she really liked. She came back to me. She strongly stressed she wanted my friendship but kept saying how she had feelings for me but couldn't act on them.
Once she knew I loved her she kept finding new ways to twist her words to say she couldn't marry or date me without me converting. I tried her church but it wasn't for me. Then she said we could date but would have me go to church with her.
I for some reason asked her to Marry me and she said she'd accept after her mission.
During her mission, she broke us up, but when I sent her a letter to fix the relationship, she viewed it 14 times before replying. With only converting pamphlets and shit like that.
She then dropped me when I refused and told me she moved on.
Now she's engaged to someone else.
I'm still heartbroken. But I'm more upset I lost myself so much for this girl when I don't think she loved me like she claimed to. Or even at all.
Is this normal? To not be over someone's actions towards you?

I want to learn several things from this poll.

First, I want to know how my views on these women compare to the views of other males.

Second, I want to learn more about the relationship between the attractiveness (genetics) of the male and the attractiveness (genetics) of the females he finds attractiveness. I will do a similar study reversing the genders soon. It is important that you include a response detailing in order of who you are most attracted to, also describe some of your own facial features, such as your jaw shape, eye color, hair color, face shape, as well as how old you are. The more specific and detailed, the better. Tell me what you find attractive about these women and tell me how they make you feel; would you marry them, would you have sex with them for a night, would you date them, how attractive are they?
Rank them in order of attractiveness from most attractive to least, and pick 3 women who make you feel 3 different things (such as marry, one nigh stand, or not even touch).

Ladies, please tell me who you think is the prettiest, the sexiest, etc. I want to know how the sexes think of attractiveness among their own.

Also, if none of these women sparked your attention, please name someone (who i can google and find a photo of) that you find are extremely attracted to.