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Yes my anxiety is getting to me.

Last week I said that I'm basically starting my life over. You can read it here.

One of the things I want to do is getting back into Entrepreneurship. I've always wanted to be an investor and maybe run my own Real Estate company.

When I left high school I tried. I studied to trade stocks and when I was 19 I made a Robinhood account and tried to invest, and I blew it. I rushed into it with little knowledge and practice trying to make as much money as I can with what little I had. I made some good trades, but the bad ones killed them. It discouraged me from doing it again and with other issues I've been going through I've lost interest for almost a year and a half.

Well now I think I'm going to just forget what I know and start from square one. I'm going to do actual research and practice my trades, and most importantly I'm going to take my time with this and not rush into it like last time, and I'm going to see my mistakes as something to learn from not a reason to quit.

Embarrassingly I'm still living off my mother's allowance and plasma donations, but there's a medical billing company that's trying to get it's start and my mother is training me to work with them, and I'm basically pre hired, but that job isn't a guaranteed because there's an issues with trying to find a new owner, but I'm still hoping, and there's also other billing companies that might be interested.

Whatever my income is I think I'm going to take all my change and put in a stock broker account while I practice stock trading. I will save it up to $1000 or so before I even think about trading again.

I've had a talk with my mother about my plan and she told me that no matter what I decide to do with my life she 100% supports me no matter how long it takes. I may have made mistakes in my life, but I'm going to turn them around.

Met this girl (24) online who moved to my city 2 years ago for work and things moved fast. One 3 hour dinner at a restaurant & I got the impression that she was a complete "goody two shoes." We had so many values in common... so I thought :/
2nd date she invited me over and we slept together, which caught me off guard. She initiated everything, but I went with it b/c it felt special. I didn't finish and she said "I'm sorry I'm not very good at this" which got me thinking she had not been with many people.
2 wks later we were in a relationship & the only thing I knew about her past was her one and only 9 month relationship & some dating that didn't work out. A week later at 11:30pm she gets a missed call & text from a guy saying "Hey, I miss you." She explained it was a guy she dated earlier in the year. No big deal she didn't even reply.

A week ago and a text form her ex for a valid reason created another awkward situation, which led to me asking dangerous questions. How old she was when she lost her virginity & how many guys she had slept with? I didn't think I would get unsavory answers, but I did.

She lost her V at 20/21 (not a big deal), told me I was the 8th guy she had slept with & the last guy was 4/5 months before me. With her only being 24 & a 9 month relationship in there I did the math. From the time she broke up with her ex there was an 18 month period where she slept with 6 guys. Very unsavory info, but it gets worse... 2 of them were one night stands where she invited the guys over to her apmt the very first time, the other 4 she slept with after only 2-4 dates and one turned into a friends with benefits situation for 2 weeks :/

We have already BOTH fallen for each other hard and I'm devastated. She feels AWFUL, said she was lonely & admits the mistakes & how stupid she was. I feel like she was only after sex, had no respect for herself, didn't learn from the mistakes & am having a hard time seeing her as the same person I thought she was.