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I wear my mask whenever I leave the house, even outside, but I keep having to deal with conspiracy nuts who listen to Alex Jones like it's the news tell me "COVID is a scam" or "the mask is Tyranny" or "you're giving up your rights", and most of these people are in my family.

Look, I'm just going to be 100% honest. The main reason I wear my mask everywhere is that I suffer from crippling social anxiety and having my face covered helps a lot, it may seem strange but it works. I'm not concerned about my grandparents dying of COVID because all of my grandparents are dead, and been dead long before this pandemic.

Also if the mask does help with the pandemic then it's a good thing to keep it contained as much as possible, and even if it doesn't, what's the real harm done?

And about this tyranny bullshit, can we just stop this? We should go against the politicians who are trying to force people by law to wear a mask but don't bother regular people who are minding their own business and wearing their mask. We're not bending the knee, we're just doing what we think is right. They say "you're giving up your rights by wearing a mask", well it's my right to wear this mask if I want to and YOU"RE infringing my rights by telling me what I can't wear.

I'm not one of those people who's up everyone's ass about wearing a mask either. Whether you decide to wear one or not, I don't care and it's not my problem. I wear a mask because I want to.

We knew each other 2 years ago, and we've been each other's bestie for almost 18 months. For uni, each one travelled to a different country a year ago. She's literally the closest person to me, and so am I to her. I had feelings for her a few months ago. She once gave me remporary hope when she told me she had feelings for me because I was the first guy she knows but those feelings are already dead now. She kept mentioning relationship stuff, and she strangely felt that I like her. One day I flirted with her as I usually do in a humorous way, not becauseI like her. She literally told me "I don't accept flirting anymore because I feel something with your feelings, and I don't wanna give you hope while I'm not ready. If it was someone else or someone I'm interested in, I would have accepted it." I got triggered a bit, and I understood that she doesn't wanna give me hope because she's never gonna like me or something, and I always relate it to my height (5'5"). Today, she told me she has feelings for a guy for a few months til now. She asked me about how to approach him and whether it's right or wrong to start a relationship and other friendy stuff. I was being nice and helped her a bit. She hasn't told me his name yet, and I don't think it's me. The reason why I didn't tell her directly that I like her is that I'm not ready yet to start a relationship because of many reasons, and the main one is that it's too early to know where I'm gonna work after uni, how my life would be, and whether it's gonna be stable since I'm studying in another country than her and than me and her live.
I know when I get stressed, I think in the wrong direction. I want people to help me figure out a solution to me problem.
I don't know whether to tell her everything and that I'm not ready for commitment&give her the feeedom to decide what she's up to, or to avoid dealing with her at all and end all this, or to just wait til I'm ready for commitment and tell her everything and that I'm ready.