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Well i have schizotypal personality disorder. It makes it hard for me to make friends.

I developed this disorder from mental and physical abuse from my mother. To survive, i kept to myself and imagined i had a loving heavenly mother. I was beat up a lot as a child, told that everyone hated me and that people would be happier if i killed myself because everyone thinks everything i say and do is wrong... So now i have this disorder, social anxiety and just general anxiety disorder. I have issues being around people. I can't sleep at night after socializing. I analyze everything i said to them and everything anyone said to me.

But i am not a bad person. I also want friends!! Should i tell people i meet i have this disorder?

I’ve been seeing someone for a few weeks now and I’ve been enjoying my time with him. We live about an hour away from each other but he makes the drive to me on the weekends when we’re free so we can hang out. We’ve gotten really comfortable with each other (maybe too comfortable, he’s popped a zit on my face) but he has a toothbrush for me at his place.

My biggest issue/pet peeve is communication when we don’t see each other. I have really bad anxiety and when it’s complete silence for days, I always assume the worst and that it’s my fault or I somehow messed things up. We’re both young and he works a ton of odd jobs to make ends meet for himself. Which I understand is rough, he’s completely independent saving up money for law school tuition, rent, food, etc. He had a personal matter that didn’t allow him to work for some time so he’s been trying to catch up on that.

I brought up the communication before when it was radio silence for a few days and told him I assumed he wasn’t interested anymore, and he explained his personal situation. I understand. But the last time we saw each other, I jokingly asked if he’s going to go ghost again. He told me that because he wasn’t able to work for that while, he has a lot to make up in the coming week to make up for all that money he lost. Which means there probably won’t be time for our usual phone calls (they’re long and the nature of his jobs don’t allow him to get on the phone and I completely understand why).

It’s been about a week and I haven’t heard a word. I know he’s fine, he shared a post on his Facebook. I was upset because a simple text would have taken that same amount of time. At the same time, I’ve also been in situations where I don’t talk to people but I’ll be active on my social media.

Guys, because he warned me in advance that it would be a busy week or more trying to make up for all the money he lost, is that a legit excuse to be silent for so long?