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I do because I know me and externally I’m a pretty okay guy some would even consider slightly above average but if I had to rate myself I’m a 2 that’s not low self esteem it’s just I know things about me personality wise and how I am I’m not a good person don’t get me wrong I can be kind and mannered but I know if someone really got to know me they would not like me

Everyone I know always hates on and disrespects me, I don't know why, it's not like I do anything wrong but it's like I have this magical ability to make everyone hate me for no reason... For example IL jus be walking down the street and some car will honk out the window yelling wanker at me... or IL jus be sitting down minding my buisness playing a video game, and all of a sudden my brother gets mad at me and blames me for burning his pizza that I didn't even know he was cooking, claiming that 'i could have let him know"

And another example of this I was playing a video game called RuneScape just at the bank.. and some random person told me my shoes look gay.. and another time I was walking in school and some fat ginger kid walked passed saying "what you say about my mum?' even tho I said nothing.

And that's not all.. my mum always hates on me and disrespects me calling me a loser and stupid and stuff like this, and even on this website random people just insult me for no reason and I bet someone in the comments here will now.

I don't know why this is... I don't know why random people seem to hate me when they don't to others.. I see other people get treated nicely with respect but I always get hated on for in my opinion.. no reason... Why is this? Am I jus cursed?
Or is it because I'm ugly and everyone hates ugly people? I don't get it..

It's also very bad for my self esteem, I have low self esteem because of it and avoid everyone, I stay alone as much as possible since I think everyone hates me, it makes me feel like a worthless turd that everyone would rather I was dead.. very sad..