Search Results: having second thoughts

I am 25 years old, and for the past several years, I have been in the lowest point of my life.

I have no credible talents. I still live at home, and I am on disability. I only receive $850 a month from social security after medicare deductions. Once I turn 26, I will lose my parents' insurance.

I have never had a girlfriend. I am really short for a male, with a height of 5'6. I have failed when it comes to women. I was even arrested for stalking for trying to win a girl's heart. It is a long story. I now have a criminal record for stalking and harassment.

I am terrible with women. In addition, I cannot get over a woman's romantic past. Any romantic bonds she had during her youth, whether that be college, high school, or middle school, I cannot get over. If I meet a woman now, I can never say we knew each other during our youth. Meanwhile, I have friends (and even my parents) that can say they are with someone they loved from when they were young.

I am in university right now for web app development, but most people don't need a college education for that.

I cannot seem to get any jobs or internships in the field that I am pursuing, and I have been studying and coding for 3 years now. I feel I have nothing to really show for it still.

I am having second thoughts whether this field is right for me. I don't know exactly what is right for me anymore.

I used to be an EMT, but I had to voluntarily surrender my license due to my criminal convictions.

I have only had sex with one woman in my life, but it was pity sex with a high school girl. Both virgins. She was 16; I was 20. That is the best I was able to get with an attractive girl.