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Okay so I know this is stupid and as much as I don’t want to post this I have to ask, am I ugly? My whole life I’ve always been insecure about how I look. Usually always getting bullied by boys sucks the most, I can’t trust any guys anymore without knowing they won’t hurt me or say something insulting to me and it hurts on the inside. (My own mother says I’m ugly and that telling me I was beautiful would be a lie, if i wanted to be pretty I’d have to look like the skinny white Girls in order for boys to like me.) I feel like I’m not good enough and as much as I love makeup I hate wearing it all the time, I have moments where I’m feeling very confident and happy but other times when I see all my friends with their bf’s I feel super lonely and question myself. I’m very shy but once you get to know me I’m really weird but funny weird and I love to make people laugh even if it involves me doing stupid things. I try my best to make people laugh when they’re sad, anyways I wish I knew what was wrong with me or what’s wrong with the way I look. I’m only 16 and have many years to come but I don't know it’s always been bothering me lol am I unapproachable? Maybe bc I don’t talk I don't know I think it’s bc I don’t look like all the pretty skinny popular white girls at school like my mom said and that’s what makes me more insecure about myself. I look nothing like them, please tell me the truth it would mean a lot. (Please don’t give me sappy comments I just want the truth, I feel like my dad and friends lie to me about this). I understand everyone has diff. Taste and opinions which I definitely understand. Just want to know everyone’s separate opinions about me, thank you.

He's never really been single and felt that he "has to experience that before being ready to settle down" cause he "saw me as a life long partner" (BS if you ask me). So he dumped me and wanted me to wait for him while he plays the field a little. I wasn't up to that so he got heartbroken (his own fault). And while going trough rough time jumped in to a rebound relationship.

I don't know the girl and I don't hold any bad feelings towards her. I actually feel sorry for her cause my ex is still hitting on other girls behind her back, using her to try and make me jealous and trying to get me back without her knowing. I just wish that she saw what he's doing and would give him a leasson. I don't want him to break her heart too. If that's the way he behaves he really shouldn't be in a relationship.

So does it make me a bad person to wish for her to dump him? Not because I was jealous or wanted him back but because he has to realize that's not how you treat your SO.