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So yesterday my boyfriend told me he went to breakfast with his friend and his friend’s girlfriend and he told me later he was gonna spend the night with him. Which I automatically did not believe. Because I find it weird that after so many months of him and his friend not speaking and him not hanging out with him that he randomly decided he wanted to have breakfast with him. Also we are all in our 20’s why do you feel the need to spend the night at another grown man’s house with his girlfriend? That’s weird to me. Anyways I told my boyfriend I didn’t care if he spent the night as long as he showed me proof he was there. I said this because he has a history of cheating on me with some girl he barely knew and he ended up getting he pregnant (which is another long story).. and I decided I would stay because I love this man so much and we been together for so long and I thought we could move past this together. At the time he was really remorseful and I felt like that was really just a mistake (big red flag). His whole family wanted me to stay.. I grew a bond with everybody. Back to my original story, he didn’t show me any proof. He said he didn’t care enough to go to his friends house if we were gonna be going back & forth. Fast forward to 3 this morning, I wanted to look at his phone to see if he actually made plans with his friend and I didn’t find any messages between him and his friend or any phone calls... weird right?

PROs
- He protects me
- He never shouted at me (I'm the one that shouts and sometimes he talks back but never shouting)
- He was never ever aggressive towards me never hit me and stuff
- He remembers birthdays anniversaries and so on
- He respects my family
- He always tells me where he goes and with who, sometimes he even asks me if he can
- He cares what I think when it comes to decision making
- He cooks when i'm tired and also cleans (not all the time though)
- He surprises me for Vday and Bday
- he tells me he loves me and that he is in love with me
- he kisses me in front of the whole world
- He lets people know that i'm his woman
- He never cheated on me and he lets me use his phone
- He works hard and provides for us. (we both work but he has a higher income and always makes sure that I have everything).
CONs
- He hangs out with his friends and in some cases he even gives them priority (I get pissed and let him know)
- He loves to drink, but he never lost control he actually gets happy, and he does not drink at home unless we have a date night with a glass of wine ( i constantly remind him and even tell him that he is becoming an alcoholic but i know for a fact that he is not becoming one because he always drinks in the evenings never in the morning).
- Sometimes like at least once a month he comes late at home, like 3 -4 am in the morning (I HATE IT) but he always prooves to me where he was and with whom.
- Sex became a one in every 1.5 / 2 weeks thing (we both work a lot especially him + saturdays BUT STILL) he also expects ME TO START IT ugh
- He sometimes hides bad news from me
- Sometimes he just doesn't seem to understand or listen to me
- Sometimes he is narcissistic
- He sleeps A LOT, especially on weekends
- He rarely organizes something for us, it's always me that does it
- In the morning is he is EXTRA GRUMPY and he doesn't talk at all, he even is pissed at times

It was only one time and a horrible accident. I regret is so much. My boyfriend is so sweet, handsome and kind. He didn’t deserve it and I feel so bad sometimes. He has the most gorgeous green eyes and I tell him all the time that I wouldn’t ever make them cry or do anything to hurt him. It would be backstabbing and hypocritical of me to tell him the truth of what I did. I can’t tell him. It was just once and a mistake that won’t ever happen again. He is so sweet and caring of me. I can’t lose him.