I feel like I can’t tell anyone about this but I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for five years and it’s been good except for in the beginning (1-2 years into relationship) he was always looking at other girls, like all the time. I remember thinking it was weird since he is with me? He would do it in front of me as well. He had certain girls that he did this with and especially with one woman, who became very interested in him. Anyways, I have always ALWAYS been super against cheating of any sort but I have felt not good enough in our relationship, not appreciated, I have been rejected when talking about marriage or children. I felt like he always had so many options but I didn’t because I stayed loyal, he put himself first etc. So about a year ago my eyes began to wander too.. I was looking at other men. It felt wrong but then I always told myself he does the same thing to me! So it felt ok, and he was still doing that. Now that we have lived away from each other for almost a year I feel like he have matured. I don’t see him looking at other girls the same way he had done before and I feel more appreciated in many ways but the thing is that now I feel like the tables have turned and suddenly it’s me who wants others attention. It’s awful I know! I would never get physical with anyone but I like the attention when they talk to me.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me or what to do. I like our relationship it’s nice, it’s stable. Then why do I feel this way? I also think I’m unhappy with myself. I don’t know who I am without him, I relay on him too much.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me or what to do. I like our relationship it’s nice, it’s stable. Then why do I feel this way? I also think I’m unhappy with myself. I don’t know who I am without him, I relay on him too much.
