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Ok so in middle school I was in special ed classes. And all my friends were in special ed classes, or just classes that were slower then all the other classes. My friends and I were considered to be very ugly looking, we'd get told we were hideous and we smelled like poo and were dumb. I'd admit I would rarely put on deodorant and sometimes go days without putting it on and sometimes my friend would smell bad. But It wasn't all the time. I'd hate to admit it but I discovered I wasn't even washing myself or my hair the right way. And most of my friends were the same way. So then the teachers pulled me out of the special ed classes, my teeth got straight, weight dropped, I got new clothes, my hair grew longer and its in better shape then it was in years I know it is too because I noticed I am getting more compliments on it then ever. It's crazy how once I stopped getting perms and caring for it naturally I got compliments on my hair. Because I used to not get none at all when I permed it. I realized my group of friends changed as well. The people I hang out with, how people treat me, the type of people who want to hang out with me or befriend me they all have changed. I stayed the same on the inside. I'm sure you can say it's because I go to a new school, or I'm just a new person. But does how you look determine who and who you don't hang out with? And are people naturally drawn to people who are like them, or are somehow similar? Or I'm i just on the internet too much?

I'm 5'6 and I wouldn't consider myself "thick" or "thin". I'd say im somewhere inbetween at a healthy weight but he always makes jokes about me not having a fit body, how he sees a better version of me at the gym and how I would be even more beautiful if i went to the gym... Its putting me down and I used to be bulimic and I dont wanna tell him because I feel like he could be right. I've only just got my confidence back and its quickly fading :( I would never change a thing about him but I feel like im not good enough.. I'm 18 he's 23.