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for quite a while now I been noticing that both my counselor and psychiatrist have been asking me in every visit if i'm dating anyone at the moment. not sure what this is all about but I'm guessing they are perhaps asking this to see if my paranoia towards humanity or self esteem has improved in any way.

nevertheless no matter how good my mental health gets I still do not see any point in dating. to me dating is no different or perhaps just a water down hypocritical version of prostitution. you know all you're basically doing while dating is taking a woman out and feeding her with your own money just to hope that she either falls in love with you or at least have sex with you after you're done feeding her.

besides that I also think that just like marriage and relationships dating itself is very one sided because the girl is always the one that gets all the victory out of it. she gets fed her favorite food for free, she has sex and many other things that will benefit her in the long run. hell my past experiences are not helping me out either, not sure if its PTSD but I remember the girl who almost won the title as my first girlfriend was a total sociopath that scarred me. the second one who actually did become my first girlfriend was a drama queen who wasn't relationship material. since then I never met a woman who is actually relationship or even dating material at all.

till then again I really dont see any point in dating. I see so many negativity that revolves around dating nowadays that I dont I feel is just not worth the effort; whether i'm mentally healthy or not

This girl I met a over a year ago who I developed a HUGE crush on told me that she views me as a friend and nothing more. She has mentioned this as recently as December, when she said that she's "sorry if she led me on in any way", which was ridiculous because she is an awesome person and shouldn't feel bad for being her awesome self, but I am happy to have her in my life in any way. After the 10 day trip where I met her and saw her every day, I only have talked to her in person once when I ran into her in November, but we have messaged each other a few times in addition. Anyways, one night I was feeling really depressed, and I decided to chat with her because of how I'm always so happy after every interaction with her, and I straight up told her this recently. She responded with some nice advice etc. She's a very chill and sweet girl but I would like to know what she was thinking during that interaction. I'm opening this up to both girls and guys because both might understand or have experience. Ladies, please don't be afraid to tell a guy if he is wrong.