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This may not make any sense. But I’m in a relationship I know I shouldn’t be in right now. Im really emotionally tied to this woman named Eve though I know we’re not the right match. I feel like breaking up with this woman is right thing to do. But I go crazy at the thought of Eve with another guy. Does this mean I’m crazy? I dunno how I’m going to handle this when the day comes. Eve is not 100% bad, and there’s lots of good things she does. But it’s a toxic relationship.

Here are the reasons can’t stay with her:

1.
I’m not 100% sure she’s faithful:

Eve has too many male friends. She’s thirsty for attention from other guys and pretends she’s not. Eve also has a history of sleeping around, having one night stands, and has been pregnant and aborted by 2 different men. Now she’s always fronting and barely wants sex with me.

2.
She’s very judgmental and ignorant:

She makes fun of people who are poor, living cheap looking apartment’s and houses. Even laughs at people who wear cheap clothes from Walmart. She always points out bad character traits I’m me and my family. But doesn’t like it when I do the same back to her.

3.
She likes giving attitude:

She always has issues with somebody. For example, she’s always yelling and cursing at people on the road when she drives. She used yell at me frequently until I started yelling back her. She still does it once in awhile, but not as often.

Giving all I said. I still can’t let her go and I don’t know why!

I've known this girl online for over 6 years, she's older than me and we use to date off and on. But we have mainly just been friends because she kept breaking up and wanting to get back together online.

Whenever she would break up with someone she would message me in a flirtatious way. A little over a year ago I had a close family member to pass while we were in a relationship and she broke up with me while I was dealing with that situation not making matters any good.

She also would tell me about guys she's dated or is dating and she would always message me about how she can't find a guy to date while breaking up with someone every other week.

She would as me for photos which I sent but she never sent me a photo of herself only once years ago, but whenever she would ask me I'd ask her if she would send me one of her since I did and she said she would but never did. She even gave me her phone number once and different people answered the phone as she said she lived with her parents. So I'm guessing it was her family picking up the house phone and not her actual number.

She recently gave me another number but always asked why I didn't call her and I told her I didn't feel comfortable giving out my number but gave her an email alias to contact me through which she never did.

She sent me a screenshot of something on her phone but I'm guessing didn't realize her messages showed with someone sending the message "Hey b***e (guys name)" So I researched her name and location and many people live there and showed someone in their 50s by her name lived at the address, was able to locate by phone number, and also a relative named (with the guys name) lived across the country.

So as of today she deactivated her account online not informing me, whenever I would make a new account or take a break I would tell her since we were friends.