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I often wind up in odd, funny, strange and maybe even disturbing conversations, but the one I wanted to talk about today was how there was a time in my last school when, on my friends birthday, because she liked Black Butler so much, I addressed her in the manner of a butler the entire time we met and I carried her items for the day, spoke very formally and she even occasionally tried to see if she could break my personality by teasing me, but she then said she was super happy to have me doing this.

I don't know why, but for some reason I actually like the typical butler stance, it is quite comfortable for me, the problem is that if I want to enjoy that physical state every so often, people around me will assume I like acting like one a lot and so I also will have to reply like a butler while standing like one, the funny reality is that my real personality could never be be applied to a butler job, it is just a little hobby of mine to sometimes entertain friends.

The one arm in the front in the other behind is a comfortable way to stand but also has a reason in real life, it is supposedly something to do with ensuring that they bow correctly.

My life in and out of my friend group has always been a series of odd events because I love making them if I am with my family or with people who are not friends, but when I am friends, they are people who absolutely love to also create weird and funny days that stand among the rest, which just fuels my passion for it. I have been in a couple dangerous situations but we realised early enough to understand we should reconsider our actions ^__^

I sincerely ask myself this question and I'm conflicted a bit. I truly do love God and desire to please Him as that's my purpose. I think I would sin to please myself and act my natural bad boy way here and there, but probably wouldn't feel comfortable doing it since I love God. Threatening to burn me forever does keep me in strict obedience though. I'm just scared of God.

So there is this girl in the same year as me ( we both at third year in college) you can say whatever you want but am sure that it's love at first sight. I am so in love with this girl, she is the very first thing that I think about when I wake up, and the last thing I think about before bed. Now the thing is I am more on the introverted side. I can't say that am total introvert but yeah am not very comfortable around people. Around her I freeze like have a totally brain freeze I can't think of anything to talk with her about, I only talk when there are people around us. So 2 years have passed and I thought this was going nowhere so I had to get some help from friends. They helped me a lot through this year and made me actually build the courage to talk to her almost normally and while talking to her I found that I was right about my feelings for her even more. Now I want to take the next step and actually tell her how I feel ( there is a very good chance that she can already since it though) but I have known from one of her friends that she actually doesn't think about stuff like that and she is more focused on her studies. Am afraid that if I tell her how I feel she is just going to shut me down and keep a distance between us or even start avoiding me. We going to start the semester soon and I really don't know what am supposed to do.