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So basically I've suspected this for a while now, eventually when i was using his computer i found this site, its basically a site that wealthy older guys can find younger girls to pay them for their time, basically taking them to expensive restaurants, buying them things. He's not that wealthy at all. He probably only makes about $90,000 a year. I mean what would you do if your father was meeting up with younger women maybe from 18-24 years of age, who have no interest in him but only for the sole purpose of getting money or gifts? I'm not sure how much he is spending, and i believe he is "seeing" multiple women.

Don't get me wrong, I've asked those questions during my early days here too 'cause I was just desperately seeking encouragment to pursue someone.

I realized some time ago that it wasn't for love like I thought, it was just to finally be with someone for the first time.

I don't know what I want anymore. I'm terrified of having interest in someone. Oh so mortified by the idea. My heart sinks at the thought of it. Even when I feel lustful, I hate myself. And saying I'm lonely just makes me look desperate and pathetic. I'm just another self-loathing no-experience guy who dares to identify as a hopeless romantic.

We are literally the worst.