Search Results: lifelong friends

I think love sucks and ill explain why. Now, not to sound arrogant or full of myself, but I am an extremely attractive guy, and let me tell you something, girls who were with their partners for like over a year, seem to just throw their man under a bus when im around them under most circumstances. when I started dating a girl one time she was really into me, but overtime I noticed that even though we were still digging eachother without any problems, it just got to the point where that honeymoon phase died down quickly. then, I look at long term couples, and it really isn't the same at all after a certain point, in fact, sometimes they do not love eachother. some of my lifelong friends have just completely dropped me after a certain point too. Its like, we changed so the ''love'' that we had for eachother was just a distant memory. I sometimes have a feeling that most people do, which is when you just dont feel like dealing with anybody. so this is ''love'' that everyone goes on about, it only exists in certain situations, and believe me, love can easily turn into hate at the blink of an eye so im at a crossroad here. All the people who acted like they were going to be there for me was not there, and now I am realizing that I cannot expect anyone to love me unconditionally, friends family girlfriends etc.. because nobody belongs to you forever.

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I was brought up the wrong way in life, was bullied and ostracized and grew up with almost no friends. People who were supposed to be the role models in my life were not very good role models at all, biological father left when I was 5, a bipolar narcissistic mother, a racist and sexist step father for the majority of my childhood, second step father never worked a day in his life and has no financial balance, older sister was on drugs and became a teenage mother, older brother was always in and out of juvenile detention and also became a teenage father. With all the people people I was surrounded and grew up with and all the bed events that happened while I was still developing, I quit school when I was 17 when my grandmother passed away and spent the next couple of years locked away in my room living at mom's house and living on her allowance, dealing with depression, anxiety and other mental and physiological issues due to my past.

Never got my driver's license until 20 (almost 21
Got my first job at 21
Started lifelong career at 22.5 (also self employed
got my first car at 24
Turning 25 in November and just getting ready to move out of my mom's house

It's been a long journey and I'm proud of the man I've become basically on my own. But when I hear people say that they had their first job at 14, license and car at 16 and moved out at 18 tends to discourage me and I feel far behind. I try to look at the positives.

I'm still young
I make better lifestyle habits
I have no kids
I have no addictions (which runs in the family
I have $0 in debt (never went to college and I also paid back my mom
I have a great credit score
I have an actual mortgage on a nice house
I make enough to support me and a stay at home partner