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We’ve only been dating 4 months and every time I see him, I feel like there are a lot of silent gaps. We talk to each other periodically throughout the day when we don’t see each other in-person. However, when we are together, the silence takes its place. My mind completely goes blank with him. We have a lot to talk about, as we have a lot in common (similar hobbies, career choices, friends). I love him with all my heart, and, personally, I am able to enjoy the silent times with him, but I don’t want them to feel awkward to him. They don’t feel awkward to me. I just want to make sure silent moments are “normal” in early relationships...

I'm in love, no need to sugar coat it. It's unrequited (to the best of my knowledge) and it's so hard. It's not the first time this has happened.. I liked a guy for five years that I didn't know well. We were close as kids but I liked the idea of him rather than truly him because I didn't truly know him as we grew older and apart. I moved on, and it took confirmation of nothing ever happening, but it did eventually pass. I now like this other guy and at the beginning I was so aware of everything so I decided to approach every step of this as prayerfully and as honestly as possible. I want to Glorify God with everything I do, and although marriage and that guy seem like a shiny jewel, it's nothing compared to the love I have for God. That doesn't make this painless though. He's in my Bible study group, I see him at church, I serve in kids programs alongside him, and any time I'm hanging with my friend group, he's there. I can't ignore him. I don't want to either, because I know that God is in charge and that he will resolve my feelings and my circumstances. I know that we go through trials in life that grow our faith, and I know I must choose one or the other, but I guess due to a lot of circumstances (which I don't have time or space to get into), right now is just a very difficult and pressing time for me in life. I like him for the right reasons, but I feel so heartbroken and heavy around him. And as I mentioned before, that's very often. I'm considering leaving my group, which would be so hard because it's like family to me, but I don't know what trial would bring God more glory. Leaving and trusting him through the pain in that, or staying and continuing to feel heartbroken and unable to say/do anything. I know that God is ultimately good and I'm so excited to see His plans for me, but right now I feel like I have to make an active choice in either staying or leaving for another group even if both choices are equally difficult for different reasons. Any advice?