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Im a pretty ugly person myself and peoples first reaction is usually fear until they get to know me better. My head is big and too broad which makes my nose look small. (Kind of like Dwight from The Office). My resting face always makes me look mad cause of my eyebrows but at least people say that I look like a viking for it.

But you don't know me so lets get straight to the point. Would you rather have boyfriend uglier or prettier than you?

I've hired 3 different escorts in the past, the first one twice, the second one once, and the third one once. The reason I did the first one twice is because she was very nice to me, talked to me a lot outside of the appointment, and I liked spending time with her. The reasons why I was looking for one in the first place is because I'd moved and I had nobody, I felt terrible and the very unwelcoming locals (many told me to go back to where I came from) certainly didn't help anything. I didn't see her again because I developed a bond with her that crossed the boundaries. The second one didn't treat me well at all, and the third ripped me off. I did them two because I was dealing with so much, and the tension was building up, and I felt like the only way to release it was to have sex, and I have too many unfixable issues to be able to get a girlfriend or hookup. It helped temporarily, but the tension is building back up and with it being almost a year since meeting the first girl, I've been thinking about seeing her! I've worked a ton to make myself better despite all the shit I continue to go through such as medical issues (unrelated stuff), but I'm afraid I'll fall back on the progress I've made by doing this, how do I prevent that from happening?