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I always had feelings for this married guy, but I respected him being married. A few years ago he started hitting on me really hard and even though I can say I loved him I didn't give in because I wasn't sure what his intentions were. I didn't want to be his sex you on the side, I wanted to be his partner if anything and for him yonrespectfully split from his wife, if that was also what he wanted and so on.

His advances looked like this:
He touched me on my arms, shoulders, called me late in the evening under some pretense, called me beautiful and charming, gave me very intense and direct looks, showed signs of jealousy, made me understand that he finds me very attractive etc.
I did respond positively but didn't touch him back or anything, since he's married.

At some point he indirectly said he was about to leave his wife but nothing happened and I felt hurt. Since then he's always shown me signs of attraction but at some point he said again he couldn't leave her. He started to flaunt her around and constantly mentions her in from of me, when before he did the exact opposite and basically let me feel like his girlfriend. It really hurts me and I often question myself and whether I should have acted differently. He is often very cold and mean towards me now and mentions her especially in front of other people and I feel humiliated even though I swear nothing truly ever happened. I just truly loved him and it felt like we would soon be together.

Well and now I think I need psychological help because I definitely show signs of depression etc. But up until now it has not helped. I totally feel like a horrible person because "for some reason" he didn't understand that I loved him (I didn't hope in bed with him but I was nice enough and patient and everything) and it makes life very hard. I feel like I want to die very often. And he constantly reminds me of her now.
I'm not sure at this point if he did the same thing w

I've been talking to a guy for a while - we met 2 months ago and haven't had a chance to meet in person due to clashing schedules. We were both initially away for work and couldn't meet but as of late, its my schedule that is the hectic one. I've cancelled and rescheduled a few times but he has always been forgiving about it until the last one. He's not the most expressive person but would check-in before scheduled dates and seems to be getting more comfortable with me over text.
E. g only ever used the classic smileys but after a while, it was the kiss face emoji.

Anyways, I've explained my recent flakiness and told him things are crazier now as I'm going away for work. I think he assumed it was permanently (as i did mentioned I'd like to move away sometime) and told me that is really far and asked if that is what I wanted. I told him it was for 2 months ish and he said that is quite brief and that it will be fun. He also told me to let him know when exactly I'd be back/ available for a meet.

I told him the details and he said hopefully it will be love at first sight then?

Is that a passing comment with no meaning to it or is it reflective of how much he likes me/wants this to go somewhere?

I've been trying hard to find signs of him being a player as he has the makings of it but am drawing a blank.