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in my opinion im conflicted because its quicker easier safer than surgery to get the look for whatever dress ur wearing that night but then subconsciously am i thinking do i not like my boob size? I've always liked it before but it just looked so much better in the push up bra. i see it as a aesthetic fantasy, like purple eyeshadow, where i can dissassociate with make up and think yeah this is nice and fun but i dont need it or want it forever. but i can't disassociate when it comes to push up bras because i do want it forever. but is it bad to want it forever? that can't be wrong, right? people change all the time, 'always want what u can't have' or whatever that quote said. people change their body all the time, more muscle or less, tanning, shit some people change their whole sex, so a pair of boobs wouldn't even make a splash. but im forcing myself to accept my own body but its hard. like what message am i giving myself? is it fun or harmful thinking to want something else? I don't know.