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Things he did:

1. When my a good friend of mine was in between us in class he would constantly tell him to stfu when he was talking to me
2. He used to make fart sounds with his hands, waiting for me to look at him and make my "are u serious" face to mimic me
3. He got very excited when I finally accepted to work with him once
4. He noticed I sleep a lot and called me sleepy head once when trying to wake me up
5. He literally humiliated himself on the class GC to try to get me to pair up with him for a presentation
6. He remembered my birthday when everyone forgot and reminded everyone
8. Called me once with his friends to ask me help for a work and after the called he said "bisou" (kiss in French) and his friends said "ah yes bisou" and he insulted them
9. Randomly coming up to me to ask me what game I’m playing
10. When I got a haircut he waited until my friends noticed it before telling me it looked cute on me, when I thanked him he puffed out his chest
11. He said a little pasta restaurant everyone goes to is shit but after he saw me going to it he started going there for lunch and when he sees me queuing he straightens up and looks at me
12. Once we had to correct our seatmate’s test and when I tried to give my test to my seatmate they turned back to give it to their friend so he yanked my test out of my hands and gave me his without asking
13. At the very second day back to school he immediately went up to me in front of the school door, I was confused and tried to leave bc he was in a call and it was awkward but he stopped me, ended his call and stared into my eyes while thinking about what to say before we walked to class together
14. Seems to have changed his morning schedule to arrive at school at the same time as me
15. At the queue for a small restaurant he got behind me and kept looking at my phone, talking loud about "interesting facts" (that were common knowledge) with his friend

30F either DA or FA, want to say I’m some kind of avoidant. Based on life experiences, are these pretty tell tale signs I’m probably…well not attractive? I’ve always questioned how almost every pretty woman I’ve come across is always in a relationship with an equally attractive guy. When I was chubby younger, I thought losing weight would solve everything and it hasn’t. I feel like regardless of what anyone else says, I’ll always wholeheartedly believe attractive women have no issue finding a partner & they have life easier. I’ve been told I’m attractive by a variety of people for most of my life, even when I was chubby. I’m not thin, 5’7 women’s US 10 so midsize but I have that thicker thigh/flatter stomach build. The only time I get attention from guys I find attractive are on dating apps and that’s not telling in my opinion. I’ve been told this guy looked at me/this guy found me attractive from other people but the guy never makes it known to me. And there’s been very very few times where I would see an attractive guy making eye contact with me or at least caught my gaze but I just look away b/c I don’t see the point. I’m anxious/reserved but a lot of people with anxiety are in fulfilling relationships.

Last thing I’ll add was being bullied pretty badly as a kid, again I was chubby so I know this played a part. Worse in middle school, I didn’t have to be homeschooled but it still sucked really freaking bad. And in HS but not as extreme as middle school, HS was more mean girls if anything. As an adult at old jobs, I did have confrontation/clashing w/personalities too. And let’s not forget shit bosses. Since I’ve worked remotely for the past few years, I haven’t had drama with coworkers or mgmt. Let’s hope it stays that way, I’ve had to deal with toxic family members too but that’s a thing of the past.

I’M SO CONVINCED THESE THINGS DON’T HAPPEN TO ATTRACTIVE PEOPLE