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Nelson is 21 years old. He's a college student, but he's also a foreign exchange student living in France as a medical student. Nelson is African American and used to live in Texas. While there, Nelson was often bullied in school, told to kill himself several times, barely had any friends, no girls liked him, and his friend tried beat him black and blue. His best friend died and Nelson also walked in on his father cheating on his mother. They got divorced, his father remarried. His parents are happy but this really, really hurt Nelson. Nelson tried killing himself at 17 and often cried himself to sleep.

In France He met a lot of wonderful people. They make him laugh, they teach him new things, and he's made wonderful friends. He meets a red pretty headed girl named Carrie. Nelson adored Carrie, they go to the same college and work at the same hospital. They traveled together, won contests together, held hands and danced together and he felt amazing. Carrie's father hated this he called Nelson Niger several times, said stay away from my daughter and would often look at him with disgust. Carrie kissed Nelson on the cheek and offered him a date to the movies. Nelson went, that night Carrie kissed Nelson on the lips and told him I love you while her parents were in the room. Nelson bursted into tears and started crying. The father thought it was cute and a little pathetic. The next day Nelson was embarrassed to go back to see them, but the father was more open and welcoming to him.

I am in my early twenties. Never been in a relationship. Have gone on "dates" through online. They either go no where or last pretty short term/fizzle out. I cannot trust people. I would love to be in a romantic relationship. I am told I'm a pretty girl by others. I'm kind of thick, lost over 60 lbs for the year and am still very insecure in my figure. I know you're supposed to love yourself before you love anyone else. But. I am so caught in my negative thought pattern due to my lack of romantic relationships. I don't go out often and pretty much have no friends. People tend to automatically assume I'm picky. In hs, guys didn't really give me the time of day. Was only asked out once or twice and I didn't like them that much/was scared to open up. I have terrible anxiety and have come to the conclusion that I'm going to end up alone.

My mother thinks I should continue online due to my introvertedness but I believe that is not the best idea. I feel most of the guys on there want casual sex. Anyway, I'm still a virgin too. And at 23, that's pretty sad. Only once in a while will a good looking guy check me out. And the guys that look at me, I have no interest in. It bugs me and I feel so down about this. I really must not be attractive :/. I would love to put myself out there and fall in love but I feel my chances are slowly diminishing. Oh, don't forget that everyone I know has been in a romantic relationship but me.