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Hi
Here are some things about me :

Animals:
Horses, dogs, doliphins, I also like other animals as well like zebras and etc. The only animals I dislike is : snakes, spiders and etc

Colors: I love all colors..

Allergic to : cats, and cigattee smoke

Activites: riding horses , and listening to music , helping animals and others

What I look like : brown wavy/ curly hair with brown eyes and im white.( I shaved my hair out of depression and it sucks.. so now I'm trying to regrow it )

Country/city girl : I was born in the city.. i moved to the country last year in Oct. And still getting used to it..
One day I would love to be a country girl

What my past was like:
It was bad horrible.. I barley know any school. I barely got to do anything. I don't really have friends. Never got to do any sports or anything. I was abused, assaulted, domestics violence and so much more.
There is so much more to my past.

Children : I had a miscarriaged at 6wks ( raped by my stepdad and he got me pregnant )

Religion : Christian
Right now I am trying to get back with Jesus

SO:Yes I have a boyfriend

Music: Christian , rock , pop , country , hip-hop

Siblings: yes I have 2 brothers that are alive and they are in elementary school. And yes I am the oldest. My mother had 2 miscarriages twin girls and 1 boy

Counseling : yes I wish I had someone to talk to.. so it can help me

Diagnosed with : ptsd , trauma , trauma to head, and I do have blackouts ( unexpectedly) and I do have depression

If u want anymore info feel free to ask me anything. . or leave your opinion

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My grandma can't visit me ( her grandaughter) for more than 2 weeks because her excuse is that her grandkids need her.. Her grandkids are in their 30's with kids. She was then telling me that my cousins girlfriend told her to not go to a baby shower or else she won't talk to her just because that baby shower was hosted by a girl that my cousin use to like in middle school lol We are in our 20's now lol.. but she was always a family friend! So my grandma said she didn't go but wanted to go so bad! Why the heck does my cousins girlfriend care if my grandma goes? Last month my cousin hit his girlfriend bad and my grandma decided to keep it hidden and tried brainwashing the girl to not call the cops. My grandma won't stop telling me how good guys her grandkids are (my cousins) but they are thieves, hit women, cry babies.. etc. It's getting out of control My grandma is in her 70's and her health is bad :/ She cooks for 10 people who are in their 30's everyday. She can't handle that though. She's always in and out of the hospital because she shouldn't be cooking anymore! But my cousins don't care about her. My cousin even told me that he's going to take my grandmas house away becuase it's under his name. How evil is that? He doesn't even pay rent. My grandma says " aww he's living with me because he doesn't want me to be alone" but it's not because of that. I'm really worried. What should I do?