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My parents are forcing me to marry this guy- he's an engineer and also he's rich. They think I'll be happy in my life if I get to marry this guy but I dun like him cz he's girly, weak when it comes to sex ( sexually harasses me even when I tell him I dun like being touched by him like wtf? A real man should understand a women's nature). I feel disgusted when he touch me. He's a psycho bz he threatens me like he'll die if I ever leave him and then once he called me a slut and then told me to get lost but then the next day he messaged me like nothing ever happened.
And then there's this guy, he asked me out yesterday, He's damn cute and sweet p. s he's a doctor. He respects me and really loves me but he's from a mixed race and so his cast is being a problem here. I dun get this, what the hell is wrong with my family, I told my cousin about this and he told me to stay away from him cz he's from a different cast? Seriously? . I really like him, his dimple and his smile... damn I really love him but I'm scared. I've planned on expressing my love today and also about my problem with that engineer... should I go for him? This feels so weird, I didn't sleep yesterday bz of this guy, I've been thinking about him all the time... I don't know what it is called.. but I think I seriously fell for him, I dun want to miss him... money is worth shit if there's no love or understanding between a couple but my mom had a hard time (money problem, she suffered a lot) so she thinks money is important... that's why... but my parents are really good and I love em.. but I'M scared when it comes to my future, I dun wanna miss a sweet heart like him, I dun mind sacrificing anything for him... I've sacrificed my happiness for my family but I can't anymore cz I want to live happily like others... I dun wanna marry a sex freak like that engineer and live a hell life regretting I've lost something precious. Help me, what should I do?

I've been in a monogamous relationship with my boyfriend for 2 1/2 years. Its undoubtedly has been plagued with issues and difficult situations. We both have sacrificed and suffered loss of some sort. I feel that my sacrafice has been significantly greater but in no way blame him as i made my choices. The circumstances are less than ideal and include my divorce and fighting for custody of my daughter, being estranged from my fsmily to be with him and a whole lot of driving on my part to be eith my daufhter and with him. I've done my best to be there for him and to be the best i can for hom but i fell short. He says i dont love him the way he needs to be loved. That im just not enough., I truly love this man, unconditionally. His flaws, his temper, his imperfections all of them, i acceot him. I believed our commitment should have been off limits but it alwaysgot broken by him. He gets angry with me for something every day. He breaks up and kicks me out once a week. I feel disposable, rejected, weak, my self esteem is on the floor it wasn't before. i feel inadequate. I feel defeated but i dont want to quit. Our sex is off the charts. With him i learned what intimacy is, i had never let anyone in so close as i allowed him ro get. ( We are both in our 40's. Divorced) the past couple months he has become distant and cold but still loyal and is there for me every time i need him. We were engaged then not on again off again. he is hostile and moody i piss him off without fail almost every day. He scrutinize everything i say, he questions where i go he has to have access to all my accounts which o dont mind i am open and haven't anything to hide. So i dont knownwhat to do he told me its over becaise i dont love him the way he needs me to. He blocked me from making contact and told me i was wrong for taking his love. Im baffled and dont know what to do. Is it time to walk away or do i continue to profess my love and commitment?