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I asked a guy if there was a sth going on between us as I honestly believe there is. He then told me he didn't feel that way. This was through text. He then added that I should not worry about asking him and that it was cool that I asked. This felt like overcompensating - he feels bad he made me doubt myself when there clearly is something

I'm rationally thinking it through and it does not add up. He has shown on many instances that he cares (e. g not wanting me to overwork, always helping out, not wanting me to stay out late), lingers when leaving, tries to touch me. I can pinpoint the moment when he became distant - it was right after a tension-filled meeting where the vibe between us was so intense - he had this soft endearing look on him at one point and that both scared and excited me.

The next time we met, he wasn't just indifferent - he was cold and standoffish when we met (it was so bizzare) but then it cracked and by the end, he couldn't stop smiling around me. I'm not sure if it was the intensity of how he felt that scared him? He is the overly apologetic type and a bit socially inept too - i think he has self-esteem issues as he's constantly deprecating/explaining himself. There were times when I wanted to reach out and give him a hug as I felt he could use it though he's very well built. It's like as though he could use some emotional support

In any case, I'd like to meet him to find out if it really was all in my head or if there is sth holding him back. A close friend from HS of mine passes away last year and seeing her fiance in shambles (tehy were tgth for just 2 years but made each other so happy) last year that made me realise life's too short for what ifs. But again, is it wishful thinking on my part?