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Everyone I know always hates on and disrespects me, I don't know why, it's not like I do anything wrong but it's like I have this magical ability to make everyone hate me for no reason... For example IL jus be walking down the street and some car will honk out the window yelling wanker at me... or IL jus be sitting down minding my buisness playing a video game, and all of a sudden my brother gets mad at me and blames me for burning his pizza that I didn't even know he was cooking, claiming that 'i could have let him know"

And another example of this I was playing a video game called RuneScape just at the bank.. and some random person told me my shoes look gay.. and another time I was walking in school and some fat ginger kid walked passed saying "what you say about my mum?' even tho I said nothing.

And that's not all.. my mum always hates on me and disrespects me calling me a loser and stupid and stuff like this, and even on this website random people just insult me for no reason and I bet someone in the comments here will now.

I don't know why this is... I don't know why random people seem to hate me when they don't to others.. I see other people get treated nicely with respect but I always get hated on for in my opinion.. no reason... Why is this? Am I jus cursed?
Or is it because I'm ugly and everyone hates ugly people? I don't get it..

It's also very bad for my self esteem, I have low self esteem because of it and avoid everyone, I stay alone as much as possible since I think everyone hates me, it makes me feel like a worthless turd that everyone would rather I was dead.. very sad..

Long story short, I started learning to play hockey over the past couple of years, but really, I have only a year’s experience figuring the down time with the pandemic. Picked a terrible time to start, lmao.

I received an email today from a local adult hockey league advertising the upcoming winter/spring season. I didn’t sign up for a league in the fall, because I didn’t feel ready. I could play, but I don’t want to be bad, because I’m hard on myself for athletic failure, and more importantly, I don’t want to be a liability for the sake of my team. I’m getting better, but I’m still waiting to get fluid and automatic instead of clumsy and hesitant. I’ve changed my mentality to “take over the game” when I think I’m the best player on my team who’s on the ice, and I feel like I thrive in that scenario. But when I’m the third-or-lower of the five, I feel like I suck, haha. I’ve been playing at night recently with some new guys, and the first week, most of them were 55+, and I scored like six goals, one guy was calling me “Stevie Yzerman” after the former NHL great. The next week better players came and I had a TOUGH night lmao.

So this league…what makes me consider it is it’s supposedly for beginners, and there’s an evaluation game and then a draft party afterwards, and you get picked for a team. I just don’t know how tight they’d be about skill level, like would ringers be out there posing like novices? The other thing…I already know I can’t make the second game of the season because it’s my dad’s 90th birthday. I guess it’s just one game but I’d hate to miss it after committing to a team. The season ends April 6th, so I could wait til then…. but I’m so anxious to get started with competitive play. I’m all heart and grit out there, haha, but I’m still getting some of the finesse skills down. But against similarly skilled players, maybe it’s a good opportunity to play and get better, instead of just trying to keep up with way more experienced guys.

What do you think?

I don't really have a switch so I don't own the Sword/Shield or even Diamond and Pearl remake games but I just started playing Gen 8's competitive metagame in Pokemon Showdown and I gotta say Dynamax is pretty broken I hate it. Also it's banned. But since all Pokemon can literally do it, the amount in the ban list is real. And turning something into giants is just so uncreative. Not to mention the rest of the Pokemon are gone. I want the Mega Evolutions back tbh also because I love Gen 6 Meta so much and also because it's so balanced.

We went out for 2 months. She really like me because she would drive 2 hours to see me whenever I wanted her to on the weekends, even though she’s in college.

She started playing games, so I called her out to set some boundaries. It started a brief argument, and a few days later I tried to clean it up a bit. Soon after she ghosted me. The last thing I said was “if you’re down to keep things going when we can then so am I. You gotta admit, it’s always a good time” that was almost 2 weeks ago.

I think the reason she started playing games is because she thought I was playing her and not taking her seriously (never called her, never asked if she got home safe, never sent good morning texts, never drove to her, never mentioned a relationship) I was a straight up asshole and took her for granted. I wanted a relationship, but I wanted to wait just to see how college would go, so I hid all my feelings from her. It’s been 2 weeks since hearing from her. Should I send her this:

“I know things are long gone, but I still wanna say that I hate how shitty I treated you the whole time. There’s a lot I wish I did”

I’d like to see her again, but I know that’ll never happened because she thinks I was playing her and wasting her time and money for 2 months, which was never my intentions.