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So this guy I met and dated on tinder for a few weeks met one night and just talked. We had super good conversation and I left and he later that night said he had a fun time and that I was a really sweet girl.

The next day he texted me and said that the only thought after meeting me was that he thought I was too much of a good girl for him. We were blunt about our expectations and he said he believed in sex before marriage and I did nlt. so we basically said our fairwells (we go to the same school in same classes so he said see ya in class) even though we both enjoyed our convo and were attracted to each other. We deleted each other from social media so I thought we would probably not talk to each other again. However, two days go by and he texted me asking if I went to class. I replayed with no and he didn't reply yet and its been 7 hours.

I was really surprised that he texted me. Him texting me shows that he was thinking of me but other than that I have no idea why he texted me that. What do you guys think? Does he still want to give a relationship a shot or just be friends? I don't know give me your opinions please. Thank you!!

Back drop to the story is when I was 19, I ended up in a bad place. Found a guy that I practically loved, but at the same time was going through a bit of turbulence in my life at the time and had to drop out of my university course etc which was completely embarrassing for me.

Anyway, I was drinking heavily at the time each weekend. And then I met this aforementioned guy - and I really really liked him. Like seriously, had never felt like I did about someone before him. Things went swimmingly to begin with, and I forgot about all of the other troubles during that time.

Things had been too good to be true, only for him to decide early on that he didn't want things to go further, and he was also 'bored' because I wouldn't sleep with him. I don't believe in sex before marriage - and it's a good job in that situation that I didn't.

So I was extremely upset at the time, felt even worse than I had before. A few months after the split, he invited me to a house party at his and I agreed to go (naively hoping we'd sort things out).

I went over drunk to find that he'd taken drugs and was trying to pursue a relationship with one of my friends who I'd went to school with.

So me and my friend were sitting together, only two girls at the party, and all the other guys in the room were taunting us with 'you should kiss'. Now, I'm in no way a believer of this kind of thing. But my drunken self saw this as an opportunity to get back at my ex for hurting me like he did.

So we kissed like very briefly, maybe 3-4 seconds and my ex walked in and got extremely annoyed. As I had hoped at that time.

However a now more mature me, who is t-total and settled in another relationship with no contact with my ex still feels extreme regret and shame about what I did. Especially when my motives were as sour as they were. The thought still haunts me, because I stand for the exact opposite of everything I did.

I mean seriously, will I ever lay this to rest? I'm so ashamed.

Thoughts?