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First of all he has always stared at me randomly and including when briefly talking. He also loves to study my face INTENTLY when i talk to the female boss or a male coworker or a female coworker. I caught him MAGNETICALLY LOOKING AT MY FACE WHILE IM TALKING TO OTHERS, SEVERAL TOTALLY DIFFERENT TIMES.

When he looks in my eyes sometimes it feels like he's looking too deeply. Nobody ever did that to me.

At first I naturally thought he liked me to some degree in some way and expected he may be planning to ask me out or something. He even flirted subtly a few times.

But after 3-4+ months ge hasn't asked me out and i think he even dislikes me (he negs me subtly, or maybe he's just an arrogant prickm and doesn't realize it) so I decided to stop liking him. But i am so creeped out by him now. I dont wanna look in his eyes ever again cause he feels like he's penetrating me - its just how they look deeply into mine at times like during a short convo.

I feel like he's staring at my soul and secrets and i feel naked.

I also think he's a smart guy so he can read people or something.

I dont want him around me he's so creepy. I dont want a creepy guy reading me or staring deeply in my eyes and making me feel naked.

When he's around i dont wanna talk to others or him and just wanna be mute cause I think he's listening to my words and trying to make a profile on me.

he's way too penetrating for someone that doesn't even wanna date you. Like freak off weirdo

I've been in only one relationship before... And it ended pretty horribly so I must not know how to be a proper girlfriend yet. But anyways, this is my story so far.

Me and this guy got together on discord after meeting each other for a few days... I don't know why but I guess we really hit it off. He was the one to be shy whenever we met and friended each other. He came to the group chat I was on because he liked another girl which is my online bestfriend. I ain't going to say names because I don't know who's reading this...

So, anyways. Me and my friend did a reverse tug of war around him because we both cared so much about each other and how the other was feeling. And everytime I texted him... I just felt guilty until something happened. He thought my friend was married, so he asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. I responded with a yes...

The thing was that I couldn't manage to text him... Being way too shy. That's just how I am in a relationship for the first part. And he told me he was upset one time... But it was pretty vague so I had to keep trying to pick up on what he'd said.

That was until soon I told my other online friend who'm I trusted his word ever since the first time, he was gay. And I know people of all sexualities so I ain't meaning anything against it! Many gay people that I know are always so happy and fun to be around. So I didn't feel guilty going to him because I knew that he only cared about me as a friend.

And that's where I got my confidence to speak to my partner about all of this and apologize... And I do apologize a lot. Especially online because the first time you meet me is actually how I really am. I'm way too submissive and happy and... Caring also clingy. But it doesn't seem like he's going to open up... I've searched up so many things on how to help my boyfriend feel happy and all the stuff I could think about for dating. He seems to still like my Bestfriend which I still ship. What did I do wrong? Please tell me...