I've been scrolling through my old account from this site from when I was 19 to 22. I was reading a lot of my earliest posts and it made me so sad reading them.
I used to be really popular on this site years ago until I took a step back for my mental health.
My early posts were mainly about my obsession with a guy I worked with who was my first love jordan. I laughed about it now but reading everything back I was so blind and accepted being treated like total shit just out of pure loneliness and desperation to be loved by someone who fucked me up massively. It really broke my heart reading them posts all over again bought back a lot of painful memories I'd forgotten about.
I don't believe jordan set out to hurt me as bad as he did we were both just so young and stupid. I don't know how I managed to keep that job for 3 years were I worked with him until we got made redundant over time 😅.
Last thing I heard of jordan he's a baby daddy and his family have nothing to do with him and he's a bin man now. Kinda sad as I don't think his mental health is great either but very ironic but the lad who got picked on for being a virgin when I first met him is now a dad crazy how things change.
For myself I met a amazing man and fell madly in love, we've been together nearly 4 years now and are moving into are first home together tomorrow. I love my job I have now and I have an amazing group of friends
