Lied about being a full virgin?

So my now husband been with him for 10 married for 8 has just found out how many times I sucked my ex boyfriend he asked if I was virgin I said I gave my etc a bliwjob he said how many times I said once it was a mistake at least I think it’s been so long im not even 100 percent sure if that’s what was said anyway if I did it was out of shame and guilt because I thought of him as a good Christian guy which still definitely doesn’t make my lie right well anyway he just found out couple weeks ago that I did it twice to 3 times asked if I swallowed I said yes he said that is disqusting I lied and I’d be disgusted if he did that and would wanna break up that I should’ve stayed with my ex that I deserve someone who doesn’t care because it bothers him he regrets the fact he didn’t have sex before me just so I could know the feeling I regret the fact I did what I did and that I lied so now I get to live what I deserve for the mistakes I’ve done and now I don’t know what to do it’s been two weeks he’s mad again working out locked me out of our room and said he’s having trouble getting over the past and to leave him alone

Lied about being a full virgin?
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