Questions: Dating

Also is it a red flag for you if it looks messy?

Which one gives you a sense of calmness and peace?

Back many years ago when I was 20, I was going in and out of psych hospitals and suicidal because I couldn't find a virgin to lose my virginity to.

One day, I met a girl on a dating app and really hit it off. She was 16 and the daughter of a paramedic. I was an EMT at the time and young myself. We were only 4 years apart in age.

Fast forwarding, we talked for a long time and we agreed to meet. I got us a hotel room and I drove 8 hours from my state to hers. We went on a date then went to the hotel and we ended up losing our virginities to each other.

After our weekend fling, she told me she did not want a relationship with me. I was heartbroken. We continued to talk for 2 weeks until one day I made her made her angry and she said she never wanted to see me again.

I was in college and 8 months later, I decided to find where she lived and drove up there again with a friend to ask her out again and apologized. Her dad answered the door and called the cops. I went back to my hotel and the police knock on the door and draw guns on me like a fugitive. I was arrested for stalking and I was later placed in shackles and transported to the county jail.