Is my drawing dark?

[Anonymous]

He found her after he thought she was dead, broke into her little home in the forest and separated her and her son that he knew whose father was, he saw she was pregnant but he knew she was a whore. (But her pregnancy was from a rape when she was working at these people as a maid. She was scrubbing the floor when she saw the husband and she approached him and asked him politely if she could leave an hour early since her son’s school requested that she come for a meeting regarding her son bullying the other kids but it was them beating him and pinning the blame on him, he looked at her with disgust and told her she needs to finish scrubbing the entire floor and start yelling calling her derogatory names then he took her head and push it in the dirty bucket water several times then he raped her and that’s how was got pregnant). He saw her hair trying to grow but can’t, her scarf covering the letters whore on her chest that he give her, her mutilated fingers he left her with, her 3 strands of hair she used trying to cover her cut off ear, how her mouth was almost toothless from all the beating he gave her, how broken, worthless she was, crying and trembling, he felt no remorse all he wanted to know is if she ever went to he cops.


(I’m a rape victim so writing these stories and drawing somewhat helps me cope)

[TheRealPepperPotts]

Well done. I applaud you for expressing that pain; how unbelievably difficult for you. I hear your voice and your pain; I am listening to it now and you are not alone, girl. It is a difficult thing to sit with your pain and trauma and to express it, and I think you are doing well to even be able to get this far. The way you described how you feel about yourself in the aftermath now is really poignant and raw.

Since you are already in therapy, I encourage you to keep pursuing the depths of the pain you've experienced and don't be afraid to write and draw and talk it out. The pain expressed is healing and with therapy and support, you can take each day one at a time. Trauma brought out can heal, trauma suppressed will fester.

Hope is often not helpful in responding to this level of pain, because it can feel trite and dismissive, so even though it is waiting for you on the other side, it's OK that you are not OK right now. It's acceptable. You are acceptable and worthy of being heard. Each day is a day where the world is made better because you are choosing to be brave and face this. Keep on keeping on, girl. Just one moment, one drawing, one word at a time.

[avery58]

You should go to therapy

[avery58]

Hopefully they'll help you find healthier ways to cope

[ChicoFromThe305]

Yes, you have your simple drawing a story and it's dark, and the red doesn't help lol

[Staximus]

The drawing is not that dark but the story is. Go see a therapist

[Asker]

I did. They said nothing is wrong about it, I told them dark stories I wrote about pain, still they said it’s okay

[Staximus]

Your mind is still in a dark place. You need to come in out of the rain mentally. You have healing to do

[Asker]

How can I come out of the rain mentally?

[Staximus]

I don't know. I'm not a therapist and a lot of them don't know, either. Be good to yourself and don't let yourself keep sinking. Maybe there is counselors, therapists, support groups that specialize in helping rape victims. Please don't blame yourself. Don't tear yourself apart

[Asker]

Maybe I can write good stories with happy endings

[Anonymous]

Obviously lol