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My boyfriend spoke to me this morning about a future of being married and kids. I love my relationship with my family and would want to have that someday with my kids. But I have never ever romanticized being pregnant. I horrible cramps. Sometimes they make me google on how to remove my ovaries. They are so painful sometimes, I’m throwing up I can’t sleep well excessive cravings that make me moody😔 and I’m often irritated. This is me once a week every month. And just the cramps pain makes me not want to even venture into being pregnant. I have a low pain tolerance😔 I was with my aunt when she was pregnant and that wasn’t looking like what I’d want to go through. The heartburn swollen feet the anxiety of if your baby is okay. Then the entire pain that comes with delivery and also the thought of postpartum depression or getting blind or loosing my teeth. it’s so scary to me. I was telling him if when we were ready and we had enough money for surrogacy i would rather do that. Or we could adopt. Maybe down the line knowing I have a supportive partner would help calm my fears. Till then I’m still so scared.🥺 he was so understanding and calm when I spoke about my fears. He does want his own kids but he was telling me that he doesn’t want us to argue especially when it’s my body 🥺 and we could always find a way around it when we were ready.

I know I look for this in a guy i would like to date because then I can share my special interest with him. Like I love superhero movies. It would be a bonus if he did too, of course different opinions but still takes an interest. Ultimately I think it's important to share doing something you both like doing together other than sex. Do you agree?

I never told anyone about it. I don't want to sound crazy but I don't know what to think. Is this pure coincidence or not? What would you think?

Weird event:

3 years ago, I was about to take my car to the same gas station. I usually take it in the early afternoon but I was a bit sick that day and took Paracetamol. For some reason, it felt like a weird day. The pills made me drowsy. During my sleep, I had a brief dream about my late paternal grandma. She died long ago when I was 5. She kept telling me not to go to that gas station, don't go there, don't go there. I kept asking why but she just replied ''Trust me, don't go there. I know what I'm talking. Don't go there. Take the car elsewhere''.

I woke up from that weird dream, got dressed and took my car elsewhere. Then when I got home, I found out there was an explosion at that gas station I avoided going. 2 were killed, 3 were seriously injured and 4 vehicles were destroyed. Needless to say, I was speechless. I could've been dead or badly injured had I gone there.

Do you think men or women let their guard down easier?

I was 16 weeks into my pregnancy when I decided I didn't want to have a baby. I know I should've thought it through before having unprotected sex, but I thought a little too late. I didn't want to drag an innocent soul into a world where I couldn't give it all it needed/wanted. I thought about putting it up for adoption, but possibly not knowing the home it would end up in worried me. That's when I turned to the only option that was somewhat comforting; abortion.

Without telling a soul, including the father, I went to the doctors and was soon prescribed abortion pills. I took them like so, and I was no longer pregnant.

A few days later, my boyfriend came to see me, in which I really didn't want him to, but this was something I couldn't hide from him forever. I knew he was excited to be a father. It was one of the first things he talked about when we started dating. Now, as you'd expect, he was severely upset and now he doesn't want to talk to me at all. The last time I heard from him was 2 weeks ago, and the last thing he told me was that I was irresponsible, that I'm a liar, that he hated me.

I feel as if what I did was wrong, and I think that I should just stay away from him, but I don't want us to end on such bad terms. I don't know if I can say anything that would trigger his forgiveness.

I was just wondering what pizza you boys and girls and gendernonbinairy and genderfluent and people who are cats and dogs like better.

I personally prefer standard pepperoni $7 feed all'a'y'all

***It can be Anything you Want! xx

I miss dating but I start working 60hours soon. Would it be possible to date? Or should I hold off for awhile?

I won't have time to do dates...

Self explanatory.