Questions

I never dated anyone in my life and one of the main reasons why is because I have trust issues. I been through a lot of hell when I was a kid that my trauma now prevents me from trusting strangers.

since obviously every date will be a stranger to you at first I always had paranoia that what if that person you're dating lives a double life and has ulterior motive? is God forbid this was the case then how will I be able to defend myself?

lets not forget that the bimbo who almost won the title as my first girlfriend also makes up part of the trauma I been forced to endure. this bitch played me at the last moment and we ended up burning the bridge after we departed. it got so ugly between the two of us that she even tried to send some gangsters after me.