How do I detach from things to develop myself on a spiritual level? Any recommendations for medications?

I Need advice to detach from things I get emotionally attached to stuff. As sometimes it leads me in a cycle of fear and insecurity in myself then start feeling like no one understands me emotionally or what am trying to achieve spiritually

. I meditated most days. I do feel some guided meditations are stronger then others.
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Which I blame on other things. When things irritate me. I also go though stages of insecurity with myself thinking am not good enough for my boyfriend. Or that am a burden at times
How do I detach from things to develop myself on a spiritual level? Any recommendations for medications?
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